Saturday, July 16, 2005

Catch Me I'm Falling

I'm having trouble shaking this lowered mood. Today I've had this emotional ache thing happening in my chest. It's not a real physical ache but it is there nevertheless. I've also indulged in a little bit of lighter play. It's nothing serious. My lighter play never is. I'm getting tired of this "blueness" already though. I've only revisited it for such a short time but it is already becoming very old.
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5 comments:

  1. AnonymousJuly 16, 2005 10:10 pm

    If your talking about what i think your talking about, it's always serious. But,i completley understand why it needs to be done. just out of curiousity, what does your husband say/feel/do when you're feeling this way?

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  2. dissokJuly 17, 2005 9:34 am

    Umm ... yeah, my "lighter play" is a form of SH, so you are right there unfortunately. I must admit that I don't tell Hubby when I need to do it. Stupid, I know. He tends to notice it very quickly though. I don't know if he watches for it or not. He doesn't condemn me for it, or anything like that. I don't think he understands why though. His expression tells me he is disappointed if he does notice any new marks.

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  3. AnonymousJuly 17, 2005 3:56 pm

    most people don't understand it.i've become so good at hiding it, but always wish i didn't have to. and when he sees it, do you two talk about it or no? just wondering-sorry for all the questions.

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  4. dissokJuly 18, 2005 9:10 am

    No need to apologise. I don't mind talking about it. Having said that, Hubby and I don't talk about it really. He would rather me seek him out prior to the fact, but when I need to do it, I need to do it if you know what I mean. If you'd like, feel free to email or message me at shakara70@hotmail.com.

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  5. AnonymousJuly 19, 2005 12:07 am

    i think i'm over my tatt and piercing obsession already.
    maybe i shld try that lighter idea disso... surely it has the same effect after all...
    fk i'm feeling so out of sorts tonight, still haven't done any damn housework yet either.
    i think i'm just gonna stay awake 2nite anyway. no stilnox for me 2nite cos i'm sick of fcking losing my mind everytime i take the damn stuff.
    sleep IS good tho...

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