I can't believe that this blog is still here. It's been so many years since I last posted.
I'm still alive and (somewhat) kicking. Unfortunately, I'm still struggling with the dissociation and depression stuff, kinda big time actually since therapy stepped up a notch or two mid-September last year. I've been travelling into the "big smoke" to see the pdoc weekly and staying overnight in hospital. Just last week we started with two appointments per week: on the Wednesday, then the overnight stay in hospital and an appointment the following day. Don't know how that will work out in the long run. Just have to wait and see I guess. Every week seems to bring up the same crisis feelings though ... suicidal ideation, dissociation, intense hopelessness etc etc. Let's hope the old adage, "It has to get worse before it gets better," is true.
In amongst the whole head space crap, I'm going to try to loose some weight. Signed up with Weight Watchers online this morning after thinking about the weight issue for some weeks. I really don't know how successful I will be in the long run. Making bad health choices has been a mild form of self harm for me for years ... the whole if I smoke heaps and eat bad stuff, I will shorten my life considerably. So, I have all that stuff to fight against, but I'm going to give it a go anyway.
That's about it for the moment, my little blog. Write in you in another couple of years perhaps? Or maybe a week or two ... who knows.
